unexpected

HAHA. Can't believe I'm still alive, do you? Well yeah. I do have lots of time. But seems like I can't find the right mood to document my life. Especially my wedding story. Been married almost 3 months but still haven't blog about it. Or maybe, I should wait until I deliver newborn baby then blog it HAHAHA. Oh no no. Don't misunderstand just yet. I'm not pregnant yet. Not that we're not looking for a baby, but we just want to enjoy the newlywed moment a little bit longer hehehe.

Uhm,, to tell you honestly, of course I did select best wedding pictures of mine to come out with a blogpost and already edited them. However, it's written up there that my continuous happy moments had to be paused for a while. I got robbed during fasting month :( 

A day before school break started, thieves got into my house while I was sleeping and took away my laptop, cash money, id cards, atm cards, wedding rings and etc. It was heavy rain that night and I didn't hear any sound. Quite shocking because that was my first time. What makes me felt so down was my almost five year old laptop. All my memories were in that laptop. And my works of course. I do have backups in external hard disk but the thieves took it away too. Now I have to start again from zero pfftt. 

However, I'm being positive. I'm looking to the bright side. Maybe the thieves need it more than me. So okay, I hope you will be happy with my stuff wtf. No, really. If that can makes you happy, go ahead. But I hope you acknowledge that you are not doing the right thing.

I'm still being lucky because they didn't lay even a finger on me so I'm safe. Even though I was sleeping in my unlocked room by that time! Maybe they just want the stuff. They don't intend to hurt anyone physically. Or maybe, the way I sleep is not sexy at all they don't even want to have a gaze HAHAHAHAHA. 

So, now I settled with police reports and all. I'm so touched by my husband. He's always there with me even in my sadness. He sacrificed a lots of things (I never expect he will do this during our 8 years relationship before we got married). Guess I got married with the right man hehe.

Till then, bye :D

taken. but, not really.

Reaaaallllyyy want to blog something that makes me reaaallllyyyy excited these days hehe.


But I might spurt out something that I shouldn't talk about it yet hehe.


So, I better not say anything yet.


But I promise I will.


Someday. Hehe.


Just to tell you guys that I'm engaged.

 

29th March 2013 <3>

hantaran. once or twice.

Some people say 26 is already old for a girl so must get married very quick. Or else it would affect the womb or whatever blablabla. But why I hadn't give a deep thought about that? HAHAHA. Okay, maybe it is because I'm still enjoying my single life. My other half and I never talked (yet) about this living together thing very serious. I mean like discussing it as if we are in a parliament meeting or something wtf. But sometimes we do talk about it. And it ends very quick. It almost like a joke for us. Maybe, because everytime we try to discuss I feel like laughing HAHAHA.

So yesterday, that topic popped out again. You know how we have 'hantaran' before marriage right? It started because we are not sure when will people bring the 'hantaran'.

Me : "When will people actually bring the 'hantaran'? Is it on the engagement day or on 'akad nikah' day? Why some people give 'hantaran' twice?"

Him : "I am not sure too. I haven't experienced it myself yet." (yea wtf)

Me : "Ah whatever. But I want to insist that among all the 'hantaran', there must be a Balenciaga bag for me!"

Him : "Yes, of course. Why not? You just need to wait."

Me : "What?? Really?? Are you willing to spend almost 6K for the sake of my Balenciaga bag?? Tell me honestly."

Him : "HAHAHA NO."

Me : " ........................... "

That's how our conversation ended.

Happy Mother's Day

Honestly, I've never celebrate Mother's Day before #baddaughter. Because I'm not good in showing affection. Even to my own mother T_T. Where every daughter/son talk to their mother everyday and walking together holding hands, but not me. I've been like this since I don't remember when. HAHA wtf I don't even remember when was the last time I walk with my mom holding hands. Well, maybe the last one when I was a little girl.

So yeah, in my family, we didn't show affection to each other like hugging, holding hands, saying 'miss you' or whatever. I think it is because we find that funny HAHAHA. I don't have problem with others who apply that kind of affection, it is just in our family, we didn't do that. We do show our affection, in our own way. Which I don't know how to describe.

But my mom, is a super power mom. Well, every mother is, right? If you notice, I've never mentioned about my father before. Simply because I don't have one at home. He left us when I was 8 years old. What happened between my mom and my father, that's their personal. Since that, my mom is our only parent. She is the father, she is the mother.

She had me at very young age. That explains why she still looks young eventhough I'm getting older wtf. Having me at young age means she had to sacrifice most of the moments that she supposed to enjoy before entertaining babies.

I've seen she struggled with life. She struggled with her own problems. She struggled for our problems too. She worked very hard to make us a better person. I've seen how she worked to earn money. I've been there. At the situation where money was our biggest problem. My siblings and I were too young to earn money. But she never left us. I found out days after my second brother passed away. School called mom and told that we can't claim for insurance because his school fees haven't settled. That day, I felt really guilty because my mom still gave me money every weeks for expenses where she actually having problems settling our school fees. My brothers and I was in boarding school on that time.

I can say my mother and I didn't really talk a lot. I mean like we didn't share secrets. We do talk about simple stuff like what to buy at grocery, what color you like for Hari Raya, who's married this week and etc HAHAHA. But I never talk about my other half to her. I've never asked her on how to cope with this love matters. She never asked too. But I know she cares. She knows something is wrong by looking at my body language whenever it happens.

I did bad things too. I can still remember more than hundred missed calls on my phone because she really worried that I don't return her calls. I was angry (personal matters) and I slept over at my friend's house. My phone died and I didn't bring charger. When I saw that hundred missed calls, my tears ran down like heavy rain because I felt guilty that I made my mom worried like that.

I also remember how I've been a spoilt daughter. I asked mom to drive me to town (an hour drive) just because I had a date wtf. I knew she was tired from work, but that might be my potential perfect man, I just had to date him! HAHAHA turn out that man was never my perfect man wtf. Mom never complained. She waited till my date ended. I can proudly say my mom is a very sporting mom in the world! Okay, at least in my world.

Being a super mom, she still cooks for us. Even we are big enough to take care of our own tummy, but she still wants us to eat her dishes. I'm the one who always been far from home, so whenever I'm home, she'll cooks my favorite dish!

I know I can't repay all her sacrifices for me but I'm trying my best. I try to give the best for her. I'm not sure if I can say this in real life, but here I'm sure I can, I heart you mom.

My mom, my cousin and my brother.

Yellow Kebaya

Told you I've been to a wedding, right? These pictures I got from facebook. Pictures taken using DSLR actually so it should be in high quality but facebook and blogger really mean when it comes to chio pictures wtf. Everyone have DSLR (except me) nowadays, so I don't have to bring my own lame camera to take perfect pictures like these HAHAHA.

Now I realise yellow makes me look fat fml.

Presenting to you, my other half HAHAHA.

Stop staring at my weird body okay HAHAHA. Not weird actually, it was because of the kebaya (can't accept fact wtf). Actually his brother (and one I-don't-know-who) took zillion pictures of us but he hadn't upload yet. So, I'll keep waiting XD

Happy 25th Birthday Vujie

So Happy Birthday to Me!
*loser* Nobody wish me that's why I have to wish myself wtf.

Okay. I can count by my fingers those who gave me birthday wishes. See I told you I'm not one of those popular girls who'll get thousand wishes on their birthday T__T.

Nevermind. As long as my boyfriend never forget my birth date. If he does, he'll die in 2 hours wtf. So he did surprise. Bought birthday cake. We were in a supermarket, he said he wanted to go upstairs (or he said to go to toilet I didn't listen carefully) and I said okay. I was waiting for him but he didn't show up so I waited in front of the car. He came and brought this.

HAHAHA wtf this is obviously not my cake! I stole this pic from google. Thank you google finally I can be perasan for a while, having a cake like this.

I left usb cable in Miri so I can't transfer any pic from my phone. All cake pics, birthday girl pics and so on store in my phone. You can find my birthday present on the left side in Candy. My RM20 birthday present wtf.

Here's your not-so-happy birthday girl. Excuse my pimple.

This one with happy birthday frame. But still, not-so-happy one (because I have to go back Miri at 4 pm today T___T ).

My boyfriend forced me to blow birthday candles just now. He is the one who extra excited, not me! He's been asking me to do that since last night but I refused and give excuses like, "I'm not a kid lah!" Plus, last night was still 21st Feb. My birthday is 22nd Feb. I know he's the one who want to eat the cake actually not me wtf.

Please peeps, pretend like today is not my birthday okay so I can be young at the age forever wtf.


Fine lah fine! I'm officially 25 today. Happy Birthday to Myself.

cruel me

I may look like cruel girlfriend when i'm being mad just because my boyfriend can't keep his promise to come and see me because he is sick. But he felt sick few days before he promised to come then why didn't he make an effort to go to clinic? I'm sure if he goes to clinic since the first day then he will not suffering migraine until now. All I can say is just SERVE U RIGHT!


Now I realised I can't stand long distance relationship T___T. Since I have to be here for working purpose, so what can I do? I can only hope he treats me better.