Ballerina

I was in the mood to doll up myself last week. It was CNY holiday and I got nothing to do at home T__T what a pathetic life I'm living in fml. Suddenly I miss my alma mater. Not because I'm missing all the lectures but the friends that cheer up my day. Well at least I got few crazy friends that laugh for nothing even if it is just a lame joke.

This ballerina dress I bought months ago but haven't wear it. Simply because it's weird to wear something like this when my friends around me only wear jeans and plain tshirt. Plus, I don't have the confidence wearing this here and there because I don't have gorgeous body HAHAHA. So it stays in my wardrobe.

I can't wait to move in to my new house. I want to set up a room where I can get fabulous natural lighting and nice background that would be perfect to get self picture like this. My current house doesn't have all that.

I saw many pictures in japan mags do this pose recently. What is this exactly? Looks like a rabbit ears to me. Is it? And I tried that pose to be cute like those models and I failed HAHAHAHA. I look like retard now.

This week I keep hearing that some people likes to talk behind my back. The funny part is they talk behind me but still, all their bad talks come to me at last. It's like A and B bitching about me, then B tells C, then C tells me all the gossips. Is this their tradition or what? As a matter of fact, they're not only talk about me but my friends too. I don't know why I'm moving in to a new house (which is an hour drive to school) has negative impact to their life? It's not like I'm asking them to fetch me to school. I'll do that all by myself. Not burdening anyone.

I don't understand why I'm not putting make up on Tuesday and Thursday (because I teach PE and sweat is my bestfriend) starts troubling them. I bet they don't even know bb cream exist yet they are complaining?? Their complains are all rubbish. Not improving me at all. Plus, the people who in charge of this bad gossip things are all old people, obviously their styles are waaaayyyyyy too different from me.

So I'll just ignore those useless people. I'll just assume that boredom strikes them and they don't have things to do other than bitching others. Don't you guys feel happy that I'm being positive? HAHAHA.

Happy Chinese New Year

Finally it's Friday. I don't know should I feel happy or not. Okay, if I'm not happy because it's weekend I must be insane already wtf. But it's weekend plus two days chinese new year holiday and I'm stuck here can't go back to Sabah because airlines tickets are sold out, do you think I should be happy?? Now I regret why didn't I think of this before so I can buy the ticket earlier pfft.

Originally, I don't have the intention of going back. School has just started about three weeks ago so I thought it's just a waste of money. Not even start to miss home yet wtf. But then, everyone already on their way back to hometown and left me alone here!!! What kind of #foreveralone is this? Am I really destined to be like this?? Can anybody lend me a shoulder so I can cry a river? T____________T So now I'm officially alone with no housemate no neighbours around me. I'll lock the doors and windows all the time to avoid me being rape wtf

I'm trying to be positive now. I'm gonna do everything useful to make my days productive!

And today I woke up early because I kind of lost myself in the morning thinking deeply today is Friday or Saturday? Why does it feels like Saturday? The process of deciding whether its Friday or Saturday stopped right after I heard the voice of my neighbour's son, so I knew its Friday and I have to take bath then put on make up to make my face less ugly wtf. These photos taken while I wait for the school bell rings. I usually wait for the bell rings first then start forcing myself walk to school HAHAHA.

Okay, I edited the eyeliner too much fml. But don't you love my jawline here? Auwww I'm still learning to master it (I mean mastering how to photoshop my jawline perfectly).

Ahhhh I should start learning how to put fake nails then my pictures will be perfect in blog.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Interior Design

For those who following me on twitter must be really tired of me talking about my imagination of the house I'm about to rent. Not twitter but blog too. My bad. But then I think this is better than me talking about my boring work life wtf. So last week I met the house owner and discussed things that should be cleared before I start renting his house. And I went to the house already. It is actually a small low cost house. Since I'm living alone so that's not a problem at all.

It is a new house with 3 bedrooms and 1 toilet. No partition to the kitchen. So the first idea that came to my mind on how to decorate the interior was style it like Japanese! Japanese tends to have small house but it looks nice everytime I look at it through the tv or magazines. Well actually the magazines are actually Popteen magazines wtf. We can found photos of Popteen models' house or room on selected issues.

But it has been my dream to have a house with something like English theme (correct me if I'm wrong). I mean the one with cute floral patterns all over the wall. The house is originally painted with white so I'm not planning to repaint it because I think white will match nicely with those tiny cute floral patterns I imagined.

Then I started searching for some interior designs ideas on the internet. Found too many nice pictures but something like this attracts me the most;

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU why am I still have this 'kid' inside me??? I should choose something more mature! Finally found this;

YES! THISSS!!! This is what I really meant. White, cute floral, simple and nice. Obviously this need a lot of money to have a room exactly like the picture T____________T I'm in tight budget so I think I'll go for something like this;

Using cute wallpapers decorate the white wall. And I think that will save me more. The problem is finding the right wallpapers. There are hundred cheap wallpapers in town but most of them look not really nice. I mean they look cheap (they are cheap in price and cheap in looking too wtf). I want wallpapers that look really elegant or extraordinary or whatever but in affordable price! By affordable I mean below RM10 per piece wtf.

Then I remember I saved pictures from universal-doll.com if I'm not mistaken before. I remember the picture has super nice wallpaper on it.

Wallpaper like this. I searched it in taobao earlier (because taobao always promises affordable price wtf) but still think its price is wayyyyyy over my budget. I'm not putting big budget here since the house is not mine, I'm just renting it. I don't want when the house owner find out his house is waaayyyy better than the original then he decide to chase me out and live there by himself pffftt.

But I managed to get vintage mirror like the one on the right. Not exactly the same but almost like that HAHAHA.

I also have this idea of buying all pale pink furniture but they will be freaking expensive. I don't know why all pink furniture always expensive. The cheap ones are always the ugly lame boring black pfffttt. As the alternative, I'm gonna buy the ugly lame boring black furniture because they are cheap *stingy* and repaint them pale pink #likeaboss!

Now I'm still thinking what kind of material should I choose for curtain. I want thick material so pervert neighbour can't peep me wtf. And I haven't decide the color yet. Pink again? It will matches the white wall right?

Well that's all. I'll update again soon XD

serious forever alone

So yeah. I've been staring to this screen about 10 minutes thinking on how to start this post wtf. I lack the ability to make entertaining post pfft. Okay. I'm blogging now still from plantation and I need to put thousand efforts on waiting a page to load. What can I say. Coverage here is really really really poor T_____T Nothing improved since I came here two years ago. All the ads of telco are bluff one! Only cover the big city area. Those who stuck in area like plantation can only waste money on paying bills with same amount but no excellent coverage.

I haven't move to new house because some problem with the house agent. Nevermind. I found other house already and hopefully this time I can seal the deal. So, right now I still live in my comfortable zone, wake up at 7 am and arrive school at 7.20 am #likeaboss HAHAHA.

I was unpacking my stuff last week then realised than I had too many stuff! How I'm gonna pack them all later to move in to a new house?? I have tons of clothes, shoes, accessories, books, and useless stuff. Should I sell half of them? The problem is, who's gonna fit them? I'm the size of smurf!

Since I came back to school, I spent my days on watching dvd. I put myself in this small room and enjoyed my suffer by myself wtf. My life cycle is like wake up, go to school, teaching, back from school, watching dvd, take a nap, watching dvd again, sleep. I am a serious #foreveralone T___________T

I read that this year might be a hot year. By hot I mean the temperature will be higher than last year. This is probably a bad news for me because I can easily sweat heavily. I want to migrate to a place where I can live happily with penguins wtf.

#random

HAHAHA so last nite I made mistake. I thought I post an entry in the other blog (which I blog in my mother tongue) without realising I was actually post it in this blog. I blogged thru this not-really-smart-phone so that caused my confuseness wtf. I quickly delete it HAHA.

I'm not doing really good these days. Obviously this is not good for the opening of 2012 pfft. Everything is not working as smooth as I planned. So that depressed me. Nevermind. I'm pretty sure things will get better.

Well, as I looked into my work schedule, I think I've been challenged to work harder this year. I got to teach some new subjects. At least 'new' for me. Since last two years I've never teach music but this year I have to. Gosh I'm not good at this because sometimes (or maybe all the time wtf) I can be count as deaf tone people fml. No lar. Honestly I'm not that deaf. I can sing a little bit and know a lil bit about notes but I'm not confident I can teach music well.

So that's all rambling for this time. Wish my life will be better after this XD